Indeed, work has never been such a tough decision. Motherhood changes the way I think about work, my choices in work. Practicality seems to have superseded Passion. Convenience have superseded Calling. Or maybe my calling is now a mother. My passion is my child. In this regard, decisions need to be made around the new calling and passion.
The decision to work or not to work, or wat kind of work and how much to work.. they are all running through my head.
To be with Oswald is important.. To work is also important. But I worry I cant cope with both.
Long ago, I decided that I will cont to work full time even with a child. But considering that I need to travel so far to my mother's house, plus the lack of sleep at night makes me wonder if i can manage.
Things are very uncertain. I am still waiting and watching. Maybe Oswald will become very manageable. Perhaps like most baby, he will start to sleep through the night at 3month plus (1 more month to go). Then both Paul and myself will have enough rest for the next day of work. It sounds a little more hopeful now..
Been reading all the parenting books, and no one encourages mother to go back to work! ha! But I will.. Question is how long will I rest before I return? How far can my savings stretch me? Shd I change a new job to suit my new life phase and lifestyle?
Praying that God will lead and guide. N most importantly, clarify for me the priority and wise choices can be made..
Does my baby look like a girl? =)
