Camp thots and Prayer

Nav Camp is finally here. After months of preparation and prayers, its finally here. I'm looking forward to it and see God working in the camp and yet dreadful fo the amt of work tt I have to do and the tiring nights. I am in charge of Reg & Svs in this camp and its a job that needs a super detail mind. Which I dun really hv. Or if I excercise my super detail mind, then I will get a bit more stress up, n this hinders me fr interacting w the teens w so many things on my mind.

Hv nt yet finish preparing for my msg. Gg to finish soon, but its takign me forever to start on it to finish it. I wonder if I sub-consciously refuse to work on it, bcos when I finish it means the msg day is coming v v soon!! Well, human mind are deceitful and it might be v possible y i m nt starting on it yet.

Dear God,

Thank you for this day that you hv given to me. Once again I am reminded that morning reflects ur faithfulness and ur new love. I am thankful that I can stil see morning. Father I want to dwell in your love. YOu know how I am feeling now. You now the slackish feeling that I am experiencing, jus like wat I had experience during Oct PEP and NSI retreat. All the work is making me tired. God help me! Strengthen me with your grace. God I know only when I rest in u deeply then I can get strengthen greatly. So Lord help me to learn how to rest in you.

God I want to pray for Santi and Suyin who are gg to India tml. I pray for them to experience you during the trip, to see you big heart for the salvation of the whole wide world. To see that God u r not only in Sg, but also in India and China, in Africa, So many place. Pray for safety and good time with one another. Pray that they may grow in your love and grow in loving one another too.

Father I want to pray for Nat, who is at Kaleo now. Pray that Lord you would help her to learn fr u personally in this camp. Father you know her barriers in her relationship with them, but I pray God that you will break down all the barriers in the name if Jesus we pray. That Nat may learn how to relate with people esp in Kaleo. I know that Lord she may need to make a choice in future as to where to serve in-Camp or Nav. Lord I know that good plans u have for her, and even if she does nt remain in Nav, i thank you that you allowed us to meet and for us to bless one another in our time together. Yet Lord I pray for Nat that she may grow in friendship with Suyin, Eunice and even some older ones. Our frienship in you helps us stay together, so pray that Lord we will stay together as friends who knows you for a long long time.

Pray for the people gg to camp tml. Rach, Char, Sam, Julian. Pray that Lord u help them to learn what it means to be a leader. Father u give them a heart to bless, and the power to lead. U give them a heart of love to love the team mates. U help them to cooperate well with their co-leaders, and of all I pray that you help them enjoy themselves. Father I look to u to protect us. I pray for these young leaders, I pray against the lies that they are nt good enuff. I pray against the attack of the evil one that cause them fear. I pray and I believe bcos Jesus' name is powerful and has overcome all things. And I pray for these young leaders, Rach, Char, Sam, Julian, Vincent, Kang Wei, Ron En, WeiChin, KEvin, Isaac, Joel, Daniel, YunZhen, Jacintha, Bernice, Fabian, Chin Soon, Kenneth, WeiZhi, Titus, Yiwen, Lijin. I pray for them that u give them a spirit of power, love and self-discipline. And also a spirit of unity amg them. Ask for ur Sovereign hand to cover each teen, each laborer in the camp. Protect us and bless us Lord.

In Jesus' name, Amen

Camp & Frienship

Today's a little busy preparing for Nav Camp. 1st the booklet, then calling the people who cannot receive the emails, then rearranging the teams, then emailing the team leaders. n soome of these can only be done aft 930pm, aft the meeting. But its good to see everyone coming together to discuss abt the teams and giving feedback. It feels... community.

I was just praying with Serene and then thanking God that He has given us the spirit of unity to work together in a efficient manner. I can imagine some organization outside where coordination are poorly done and job turn our bad. N the best part of it all is that we are all friends, volunteers (for many of them, this is nt part of their job, but part of their svs). In a sense, some of them can really choose not to care. Thank God for their commitment, and our friendship.

I read Rachel's blog and I desire such friendship to cont in the next batch and the many future batch to come. Friendship that are rooted firmly in God's goodness and love..

May I be a blessings to all who come for camp.. Rach if u read this, u wil know that I am ur advisor in camp, n so u can be more relax liao hor =)

Motivation

Well well,

have been thinking about this blog thingy for awhile.. Some reasons for not wanting to do it earlier is cos i saw some bad consequences that comes out from it.. Its until now that I kinda find a need for it. Not so muz for my venting or wat.. Its juz tt I want to have people know more of me.

My appearance is but a side of who I am, my public is but another side of who I am. I desire to be truly transparent in my living, hence this blog is to show my thot life. I wont say that everything I think about will be here, but perhaps a main chunk of it.

I guess many people have been seeing me as too good, too spiritual. Well, only God knows I have my issues too. And this is the place to be truly human, flesh and blood, before people. Not that I have a lot of issues or that I have been wearing a mask all this while. But I guess, i just want to be more and more transparent and real.

Hope I have the time to update this often.. But its a bad time to start now cos of Nav Camp coming and also China Trip onthe way.. But its OK! Shall not give myself the excuse to delay this any longer..