Have you been to LiJiang 丽江? Well, I had the privilege to be there with Doreal..This is Yulong Snow Mountain. The most revered mountain in LiJiang, one filled with many legends of spirits and gods.
This mountain is so high and big that from town you can see it quite clearly.
And I love 丽江古镇..See the people's way of life.. They are not in the village, probably their lifestyle is not as simple as those in the village, and they are richer definitely because of tourism. But they are still living simply. Its a very poor place. Life's harsh condition on them is revealed on their faces. People look older than they really are.
Where we have been is not representative of Li Jiang. The place is much poorer and much simpler than we see. But the people have to put on a show for the tourists. Too bad..Though the place is poor, they are very blessed. They have rich resources provided by God, and most importantly, the Naxi people (majority ethnic of LiJiang, though they are considered ethnic miniority considering whole of China) are contended people.
The building gives it a feel that none else in this world has.
Another place in the world that probably has such a feel is 苏州. I want to go 苏州. I often hear of 江南 in those chinese drama. When the emperor wants to get out of the palace and to see how the commoners are living, he will go to JiangNan. I discovered that part of JiangNan is actually 苏州. I think 江南 must be beautiful..
As I looked back at the postcards I bought from 丽江, I began to miss the place. I miss China and I want to explore the whole of China. I dont mind giving the world a miss so that I may complete exploring the whole of China. I am never a generalist in that sense..
Lord God, would I have my chance to be there? To be there for the sake of your people.. Use me greatly at where I am. Take me deeper in my walk with you. Lead me further where I have not been. Clarify Your purpose in my life..
灰心生失望，失望生不信，不信生失败。
这是多么准确的真理。
爱是永无止境的忍耐，不会停止相信，不会退淡的希望。爱可以胜过一切。当信转弱时，希望破灭时，爱依然坚持不放弃。
Thank God for this week.. =) Though they were some unhappy things tt happened, but there are still thanksgiving for me to share..
Went to 永和油条大王with my parents and Lucas.. I love the 烧饼with肉松and鸡蛋. Oh i love it!! By the way, people if you dont know, they have shifted to Lorong 27A Geylang Road. 2 weeks ago we went to the old address and cant find it. It was disappointing.. But dont know how my Dad found out the new place and we went the next day of discovery! =) Nice nice..
2nd thing to be thankful about is the recent shoppings I had. Went shopping with Jia at Bugis last nite.. Both of us agree we had good buys and we were very satisfied with out buys.. =) Dont like to buy tshirt because I think its a waste of my money but last nite I bought two. haha! But I guess when you buy shirts with friends, its different la.. We stayed for such a long long time till the salesgirl came to us and said,"你们还没有选好啊？" But we still continue choosing and choosing.. haha.. But we bought 4 shirts together so I guess the salesgirl should not be too offended la.. =)
Thank God for family and friends.. =)
有些新事物不值得去尝试，有些事不值得去做，有些人不知道是否值得我等。。也许我太在乎我的付出是否看得到回报。有些事可能不可以太计较回报，可是我就是太在乎了。
等太久了我会厌烦。。
我没有说我的看法一定是对的，可是世界上不是所有的事都可以分对错。这是我的看法。对我来说，这种感觉是最真实的。
不要让我等太久。。
我不懂得执着。对我看似没有希望的事我就会放弃。可能有些人不会赞同我的做法，他们会认为凡事都应该坚持。对我来说，我会衡量什么是值得坚持的，什么是不值得的。
在考虑是否要做一件事前，我会预算成功的机率。如果不会成功的话，我就不会去做。但是如果我去做，我就一定要成功。当然事先我就会去考虑这件事是否值得让我去努力。如果值得的，我就一定回去做，而且一定要成功。
应该是怕输怕失败的缘故，所以我不会去打没有把握的战。我的选择往往只是做，或是不做。要成功或是要放弃。当然我也有选者放弃的时候，而且很多时候我选者放弃。到现在我常常会像到底有什么是值得我去努力，去争取的。也许没有很多吧。。
I am so humbled and at the same time so ashamed.. So ashamed and bad about how I have been treating Lucas with impatience. Its time like this that I know my "love bank" is low and I need topping up. Maybe because I spent most of my Sunday at home, and more time with him means seeing more of his naughty acts. Some of them really frustrates me especially when he gets in your way of doing things..I prayed for forgiveness and hope that Lucas would forgive me in future.
Anyway, I needed to pray. Its time like this when I realised how weak and imperfect I am. And I felt ashame at the way I treated Lucas, and the impatience that was really getting to me.
Its also time of weakness like this, that the Lord is glorified. Isa 43:4 came to mind and He reminded me that I am precious and loved. And because He love me, He will give men in exchange for my life and people in exchange for me.
I am humbled to be reminded that the ministry that I have among the girls today is not because I am good in any way. The ministry that I have is a result of His love for me and His honor toward me. He reminded me that even though I am weak, He has chosen me to do His work- to touch the lives of the girls. I am only a broken vessel used by God, for His glory. No matter how much I do or how much I have, I am but a broken vessel. N my purpose is to bring glory to my Master. I am so humbled by Lucas and my God. So humbled by God's choice of man- that He use the weak and poor in the world.
God says: Honor your father and mother.
But... How do you honor your parents when there are honorable things that they do?
How do you know you have truly forgiven them, when there are repeatedly doing the things tt wrong you. Perhaps I dun really know forgiveness...
All your life, you have been battling with the same issue. Your reliance, your addiction causes us all to revolve our lives around you. How could you be so selfish? You have a life to live, yet you are not living it. You have a family, but its nt enough for you. You are still addicted. Its used to be hardcore substance, now its to soft substance tt does not appear so addictive.
What is causing you so much pain and emptiness that you have to rely on them to numb you? You have a life, live it!
What have you taught me in life? One thing I know, you taught me not to waste my life like you are doing now. You taught me pain.. Perhaps its you who caused me to think so much about life and I'm determined not to waste my life like you did...
I want to love you, pls help me to love you... Stop it..
God, you know how to help me, help her... I dunno..
