Never Tired of him!!!!!!!!!!!

Dearly Loved Children

“所以你们该效法神,好像蒙慈爱的儿女一样。”Ephesians 5:1
蒙慈爱的儿女是怎样的呢？他们是有着怎样的行为？蒙慈爱的儿女应该是懂得慈爱的，他们懂得用慈爱去对待他人，怜悯有需要的人。

“也要平爱心行事,正如基督爱我们,为我们舍了自己,当作馨香的供物和祭物,献与神。”Ephesians 5:2
爱是舍己为人，就像基督一样。有爱的人生是充满香气的，感染别人，为身边的人带来喜悦，安慰，和平。在没有爱的人的身边，就像是充满臭味的。没有一丝的愉快，只有为身边的人带来烦恼。爱的人生不仅仅是为身边的人带来香气，同样也是给神至圣的祭品。

我懂得爱吗？也许我不是很懂得，可是只要我是基督徒我就不能不懂什么是爱－因为神爱我们。我有责任懂得去爱。只有靠着神给予的智慧我才会懂得好好去爱。虽然爱是没有逻辑，没有理由，可是爱需要大大的智慧。

今天有了个小小的发现。原来爱是会把我变成另一个人－成为一个更像基督的人。

I have a preliminary thought. This thought is based on the assumption that you believe that relationship between God and man should guide the relationship between man and woman. If you are experiencing BGR, and you are not sure if this is love, just evaluate and ask yourself if this love is helping you to become more Christ-like? If you are even more insecure, more self-centered than before, then perhaps you need to re-look at the relationship. Any love inspired by God will transform us to His image.

When there is nothing you wan to say, or simply too much to say til you dun wanna say.. Jus have pictures!!!

Crying in sleep

Dreamt of Oliver again.. Twice in my dream of him, I wept quite bitterly.. Is it about him, or its about me? Do I have so much sorrow within me that I wept otherwise, but only in my sleep?

I prayed for him, and I wrote him to let him know that he is loved. There is nothing else that I know how to do.

Today is a day of rest in my definition. Day of rest means I dun hv to rush meeting people, and can catch up with my reading and BS prep at a leisure pace.. So is that rest ah? Actually I dunno leh.. I do feel a little tired at this moment, and I have not been sleeping too well. There are still many people I want to meet, but there are only 7 days in 1 week and I cant really meet them all. With Santi & Ruth's O lvl coming to an end, I hope to have more time to meet them as well.. Am I tired? Well I am slightly. Do I wanna meet them? U bet! haha..

Losing out??

Did I lose out on anything when I decided to serve God as a full-timer?

Definitely.. Prospects, money.

During the interview, the interviewer asked me whether I know how much my contemporary are getting? I know that in this aspect, I lose out big time, big big time..

RX say he admire my courage to join full time.. But I admired those who went to work and decide to quit their work then join full time much much more. Those are the people who have enjoyed their good and stable pay, good prospect and career development. Yet having count the cost, they decided to pay the price.

On another aspect, I also gained big big time! The spiritual input my band of leaders has poured into my life, the time invested in the lives of others and the experience of God's blessings. There can be no other thing to replace the 1 and half year experience as a full timer. I am glad that I have done it, bcos I am not so sure if I have the courage to do it again.

God will not lead me where His grace cannot keep me. Sensing His leading, I know His grace is sufficient for me...

Vision for the World, Heart for the Individual

Through the PEP these past 3 days, there is 1 important thing that God impressed upon my heart.

"A Vision for the World, A Heart for the Individual"

There may be many important things in life for us to pursue, but I think I have decided to pursue the above in my life. Do you call it a life motto? Well, whatever it is called, this is it! This may change in the future or it may remain with me for as long as I live.