有人和我说过，有些事一生也忘不掉。我也有同感。有些事可能一生也忘不掉。。
一些熟悉的话语，画面，味道，事物，甚至是音乐都能够牵动我的回忆。在我不知觉的时候牵动着我。。
我们经历的很多，真正在一起的时间不算多，可是一起分享的很多很多。
我选择放弃了。心中的痛慢慢的在发作。经历过几次这样的痛有好几次了，慢慢就会好的。至少我是这样想信的。可是回忆一生忘不掉。。
Saturday, April 18, 2009
Wednesday, April 15, 2009
Beautifully Imperfect...
Read Abang's blog.. Reminded of the ad by NCSS recently.. "Beautifully imperfect" caught my attention.
Everything about life is imperfect but it can be beautiful at the same time. Isnt it said that "Beauty lies in the eyes of the beholder." As I behold my family, my friends, and my life, what do I see? Beauty or imperfections?
A wonderful combination of beauty and imperfections. It reminds me to be truthful about my life. I dont have to put on the fake front that everything is perfect but it can be as beautiful. Sometimes I dont dare to face the imperfections in my life because it makes me downcast.
To be able to see the imperfections and appreciate the beauty behind goes beyond beautiful. It make me more courageous to face the future, for I have no fear of imperfections or failures anymore. I know there is beauty in all..
My sister broke down, but the beauty is that my dad is there to support her. He talks to her and advice her. My dad is far from perfect, but I saw beauty in him just last night. My mum was a drug addict, far from perfect, but beautiful in her diligence and care for the family. My sis' life deviates from what we normally would want, her beauty? In the way she cares for her relationship in her life.
God, you created the world perfect and beautiful. Right now, perfection has been tarnished by us. (Forgive us, Lord.) N beauty us what devil seeks to destroy. It seems hopeless to me. Yet I remember David's proclamation in Ps 27:13, "I am still confident of this: I will see the goodness of the Lord in the land of the living."
Everything about life is imperfect but it can be beautiful at the same time. Isnt it said that "Beauty lies in the eyes of the beholder." As I behold my family, my friends, and my life, what do I see? Beauty or imperfections?
A wonderful combination of beauty and imperfections. It reminds me to be truthful about my life. I dont have to put on the fake front that everything is perfect but it can be as beautiful. Sometimes I dont dare to face the imperfections in my life because it makes me downcast.
To be able to see the imperfections and appreciate the beauty behind goes beyond beautiful. It make me more courageous to face the future, for I have no fear of imperfections or failures anymore. I know there is beauty in all..
My sister broke down, but the beauty is that my dad is there to support her. He talks to her and advice her. My dad is far from perfect, but I saw beauty in him just last night. My mum was a drug addict, far from perfect, but beautiful in her diligence and care for the family. My sis' life deviates from what we normally would want, her beauty? In the way she cares for her relationship in her life.
God, you created the world perfect and beautiful. Right now, perfection has been tarnished by us. (Forgive us, Lord.) N beauty us what devil seeks to destroy. It seems hopeless to me. Yet I remember David's proclamation in Ps 27:13, "I am still confident of this: I will see the goodness of the Lord in the land of the living."
Thy staff and thy rod, they comfort me...
I sense something wrong a few days ago. N last night she cried telling me that they have broken off after 2 years. I feel worried and burden for her. Other than that, I cant feel any empathay for her when she cried bitterly in front of me.
I only want her to get out of it and stop dwelling in it. N stop harping over it because there is no point. The point is not even in the relationship, the point is about her own growth. I tried to ask God to help me be kind and merciful, so the best I could manage is to listen to her.
But it affects everyone in the family to see her like this. I believe it affects the little boy as well because mother and son are connected in their spirit. Well at least that is what I believe.
Perhaps God has to sometimes bring us to the valley of the shadow of death before we can experience his COMFORTING rod and staff. Before that, God's staff and rod are only stumbling stone blocking us pursuing what we willfully wants.
You know what, staff and rod are used by the Shepherd to discipline the sheep. It hurts to be discipline. But David in Ps 23 says that "they staff and thy rod, they comfort me."
That's what i prayed for her- The Holy Spirit (Comforter, Helper who come alongside us.) will comfort and be with her. As we faces discipline, be glad to know that God cares for us to discipline us. It hurts but it helps us to grow.
Pray for her that God will protect her mind and heart.
Pray that she will recover in her heart, mind and spirit.
Pray that she will look at things from God's point of view.
Pray that as she recovers she will learn to love her son.
Pray for the little boy that God will protect him from bearing beyond what he can handle.
Pray for the boy and the mother to grow in understanding and love.
I only want her to get out of it and stop dwelling in it. N stop harping over it because there is no point. The point is not even in the relationship, the point is about her own growth. I tried to ask God to help me be kind and merciful, so the best I could manage is to listen to her.
But it affects everyone in the family to see her like this. I believe it affects the little boy as well because mother and son are connected in their spirit. Well at least that is what I believe.
Perhaps God has to sometimes bring us to the valley of the shadow of death before we can experience his COMFORTING rod and staff. Before that, God's staff and rod are only stumbling stone blocking us pursuing what we willfully wants.
You know what, staff and rod are used by the Shepherd to discipline the sheep. It hurts to be discipline. But David in Ps 23 says that "they staff and thy rod, they comfort me."
That's what i prayed for her- The Holy Spirit (Comforter, Helper who come alongside us.) will comfort and be with her. As we faces discipline, be glad to know that God cares for us to discipline us. It hurts but it helps us to grow.
Pray for her that God will protect her mind and heart.
Pray that she will recover in her heart, mind and spirit.
Pray that she will look at things from God's point of view.
Pray that as she recovers she will learn to love her son.
Pray for the little boy that God will protect him from bearing beyond what he can handle.
Pray for the boy and the mother to grow in understanding and love.
Saturday, April 11, 2009
Over a cup of tea
What would you do for a cup of tea? Look at the pictures below...
SH had to use a knife to literally saw it!!!!!! N after sometime of sawing, his face was wet from perspiration. All over a cup of tea..
SH had to use a knife to literally saw it!!!!!! N after sometime of sawing, his face was wet from perspiration. All over a cup of tea..
Friday, April 10, 2009
Life Race
The Race is over..
A deep breathe of relief... Been at this for 2 months... Not perfect but I choose not focus on the mistakes.
Throughout the event, the part that I enjoy the most is the debriefing with the SALT teens. Honest, genuine and humble. Thanks guys for the openness.
I know that sometimes JH, Doreal and myself dont lead well enough and we may not have given you enough guidance along the way, but thanks for bearing with us.
Ya I admit I was disappointed and frustrated with some teens along the way, but I pray that they will grow through this event.
With my working with Dor and JH, KY affirmed us for having great team work and help one another cover up for what we see not done, but I think our team work would have been smoother. Yes I agree we really complemented one another very well, covering up for what was lacking and taking charge of what needs to be done. But if there were better communications, we would hv reduce our stress level knowing that some particular levels are actually being covered already! haha!
Dor is strong is the details, covering the admin, registration. She is also creative in publicity, knowing what would help the teens to sign up with us.
JH is strong is planning the games, creative in his games ideas and also in ra-ra-ing with the crowd.
The way I see we work is that we come in when we see a gap. If we hv more opportunities to work together, with familiarity with one's style of working, I guess we can work with great dynamics. Sometimes we dont have to say so much and we kinda know that a particular area would be covered by one of us. Thanks Dor and JH for the support given to me and the teens. I appreciate it!
Blessed are those who find good working partners at work and ministry because it makes you love your job easier!
A deep breathe of relief... Been at this for 2 months... Not perfect but I choose not focus on the mistakes.
Throughout the event, the part that I enjoy the most is the debriefing with the SALT teens. Honest, genuine and humble. Thanks guys for the openness.
I know that sometimes JH, Doreal and myself dont lead well enough and we may not have given you enough guidance along the way, but thanks for bearing with us.
Ya I admit I was disappointed and frustrated with some teens along the way, but I pray that they will grow through this event.
With my working with Dor and JH, KY affirmed us for having great team work and help one another cover up for what we see not done, but I think our team work would have been smoother. Yes I agree we really complemented one another very well, covering up for what was lacking and taking charge of what needs to be done. But if there were better communications, we would hv reduce our stress level knowing that some particular levels are actually being covered already! haha!
Dor is strong is the details, covering the admin, registration. She is also creative in publicity, knowing what would help the teens to sign up with us.
JH is strong is planning the games, creative in his games ideas and also in ra-ra-ing with the crowd.
The way I see we work is that we come in when we see a gap. If we hv more opportunities to work together, with familiarity with one's style of working, I guess we can work with great dynamics. Sometimes we dont have to say so much and we kinda know that a particular area would be covered by one of us. Thanks Dor and JH for the support given to me and the teens. I appreciate it!
Blessed are those who find good working partners at work and ministry because it makes you love your job easier!
Wednesday, April 1, 2009
Busy busy..Emo emo
Busy busy.. I need God's grace.. Talking about seasons in life, this season is so rushy.. Good Friday should be remembering God, not rushing about like this.. But for the sake of the gospel, I am compelled. Only for the sake of God.. Help me O Lord..
Emo emo.. Angry, sad, trying to forgive, extending grace to the offenders.. I nv feel so hurt by gossips before. In Nav, we are a close-knitted community, even if we gossips, we are always encouraged to go back to the person we have issues against. This is what the bible exhorts us to do.
But people dont come to us. They go to others, and in this manner darken the understanding of others and create more misunderstanding. Why not come to us personally and allow us the priviledge to speak for ourselves? Why rely on your own understanding?
Sometimes I can pretend I dont know a thing, it helps me to relate better to others in the office. But at times like this, I just gotta let it out and do some emotional release. Transferring out has not resolved the issue. The damage is done, and what's done remains.. Only by the grace and mercy of God can I choose to let go and forgive. What is the intent of the gossip-monger? For our good?- if that is so, come to us personally (this is what the bible exhorts). For our bad- if so, then I have nothing to say, except may the mercy of God be with you..
But I feel bad for the one who has to endure the gossips for our sake. Ultimately, if we dont get it directly, then someone else has to get it lo.. Gossips gossips.. damaging gossips..
But O Lord, I know my intent.. I know your purpose.. Gossips or no gossips- they are non-essentials.. Focus on the one pursuit.. It clarifies my life, it intensify my energy.. Cannot let my energy dissipate by fighting the little pests.. Jia you Li Jie!!!!!!
Emo emo.. Angry, sad, trying to forgive, extending grace to the offenders.. I nv feel so hurt by gossips before. In Nav, we are a close-knitted community, even if we gossips, we are always encouraged to go back to the person we have issues against. This is what the bible exhorts us to do.
But people dont come to us. They go to others, and in this manner darken the understanding of others and create more misunderstanding. Why not come to us personally and allow us the priviledge to speak for ourselves? Why rely on your own understanding?
Sometimes I can pretend I dont know a thing, it helps me to relate better to others in the office. But at times like this, I just gotta let it out and do some emotional release. Transferring out has not resolved the issue. The damage is done, and what's done remains.. Only by the grace and mercy of God can I choose to let go and forgive. What is the intent of the gossip-monger? For our good?- if that is so, come to us personally (this is what the bible exhorts). For our bad- if so, then I have nothing to say, except may the mercy of God be with you..
But I feel bad for the one who has to endure the gossips for our sake. Ultimately, if we dont get it directly, then someone else has to get it lo.. Gossips gossips.. damaging gossips..
But O Lord, I know my intent.. I know your purpose.. Gossips or no gossips- they are non-essentials.. Focus on the one pursuit.. It clarifies my life, it intensify my energy.. Cannot let my energy dissipate by fighting the little pests.. Jia you Li Jie!!!!!!
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