STOP IT!!!!

Sometimes I jus feel like telling her to leave me alone. STOP TALKING!!!! My goodness, cant she tell from my body language that I do not wished to be disturbed. She just got to tell about every little thing to most people. In the end, I suffer the most cos I sit nearest to her.

C asked me to be more careful in the things I say and must see who I am telling it to. Sometimes, not that I don’t know my words have consequences, it’s just that it does not really bother me. I have been keeping most things to my heart already. If I were to keep anymore, I may just burst. I appreciate her concern for me, maybe she knows of things that I do not know of.

Sometimes I like my straightforward nature and I feel that if I cannot do that, I am not me. I don’t know how I might become as time progress. Maybe I wont be so straightforward anymore. Maybe that might be seen as wisdom. But that is not me at this point. I like me like this. Am I stupid to want to continue to be like this? Maybe. And also there is some extent of stubbornness that refuses to bow down.

Lord, help me to be who you want me to be. Do not conform any longer to the pattern of this world but be transform by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God’s will is. His good, pleasing and perfect will.