In C.S. Lewis’ book, Problem of Pain, says that we have been attributing God is good and God is almighty and therefore God is able to make me happy. If I am not happy, then something is wrong. Either He is not good, or He is not almighty.
I see this kind of behavior in the children and youth everyday. (More so in the children). they show you attitude because you don’t give them what they want. If you don’t do it their way, then you are bad. I was screamed at many times last Friday. One particular immature boy kept telling me or rather shouted at me, “I hate you.” He would say things that are sarcastic enough for me to know that he is unhappy with me.
What would I do? I invited him to speak to me directly and not keep talking about it indirectly. But he refused. What could I do next? Only pray for him that he may come to his senses. That he cannot get what he wants all the time. I hope I have demonstrated to him that there is another way to respond to people’s anger. Cos he has the tendency to respond to people’s anger with anger and fighting back. Also I hope tht I have shown to other children that conflict can be confronted in a non-aggressive and firm way.
I wonder if I felt hurt by him? On one hand, I know that I can get angry with him if I want to. On the other hand I also know that it is not very useful. And then I don’t know how to really feel. It seems foolish to say that I am hurt by him because I know that he is like this. Maybe the way to feel is to feel compassion. It sounds so artificial to me to control the way I feel and to even say that there is a particular right way of feeling. I don’t know. Can anyone tell me if this is wrong? However I know that there is a Christ-like way of responding to things.
Father I pray that you heal me if there may be any hurt within me that I can’t feel. Help me to release the feeling that I do not know how to express. I pray that you help me to forgive this boy who does not know what he is doing. And Father I pray for your mercy to be upon him that he delivers him from the evil one. He does not know what he is doing and he is unable to control himself. Pray that he will experience freedom and breakthrough n his life that he will not be a slave to bitterness and anger. Pray also for your peace to guard our relationship with one another and not let the evil one to come and kill and steal.
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