After Rally

Have not felt so relax ever since I came back from China.. Rally teaching is finally over and I can breathe the fresh air around me.. Was quite stress out.. Thank God His grace sustain me. So I am giving myself a treat by sleeping late tonight and wake up late tml morning..

Personal reflection on the rally.. Felt that I could have done better on planning for the activities. Maybe I am really not a activity person, I can teach, plain teaching, not the activities.. Felt like an entertainer rather than a teacher.. Perhaps I need to change my perspective on that. Focus more on teaching. Sometimes I am scare teens will be bored, think abt how to catch their attention. Perhaps I hv worried too muz over the peripheral.. Shld hv jus focus on the main teaching..

Guess I done better on the 2nd part.. At least that was how people affirm me.. Thanks so muz for the affirmation people.. It gives me more motivation to carry on..

Went to He Xing's wedding dinner after rally.. Actually I dun him well.. Eddie was invited so I was invited as well.. Didnt really talk to He Xing muz.. Chatted more with Serene who sat with me at the same table. Told her that we were always seperated during wedding dinner, finally had a chance to sit together.. haha! I guess that was what make the dinner less boring.. Oh Chin Soon n Fabian also at the same table and they of course added some laughter to the table! =)

Now I jus wanna to give myself a break.. Spending time alone at the beach (realised that beach can be quite nice at night, went there once on my own at night... Nice..), reading, listening to music, swimming.. Finally to have my Sabbath.. As I think about all these activities, I feel like doing them alone.. Without anyone.. I guess my real real rest comes from being on my own. Then I will get tired of myself, n all ready to meet people again! I am like this.. I need time alone to recharge.. N to stand in front of people to give a message takes so muz out of me.. Its pretty draining aft tt.. Many people often think that I am a front stage person.. but let me clarify.. I AM NOT!!

I am really not a front stage person, at least not naturally a front stage person.. The fact that I can do it does not mean that I am naturally front stage person. I prefer small group teaching where I can be more natural, more at ease. When I tell my friend that, he laughed! So surprised that I claim that of myself.. Aiyo, how to convince people? Can jus take my words for it? I am not lying ok.. Anyway, why am i talking so muz abt it? Well, maybe I am just feeling a bit high from too much tea at the wedding dinner..

Today went to the gu zhen shop to take a look. Pastor from Christ Church Sec wanted to give away a gu zhen and he offered it to me. So I went to the gu zhen shop near my house to take a look. It cost $160 a month to learn gu zhen. Its once a week and one hour per lesson. It does not say how long is a course and its really dependent how fast you learn the instrument. If you learn it fast, then you take lesser month, if slower then more months means more money. But what impresses me is that they give one-one teaching. Which means the teacher can really go acc to your pace. This makes me feel at ease. Have been thinking abt gu zhen for awhile ever since the shop opened near my house. But let me consider somemore.. Money and time is a factor.. Wonder if the Pastor can help me to keep the gu zhen and give me to me only when I start to learn?

God, show me if you wan me to learn gu zhen? God you are willing, you will give the time and even the money.. Thank you God..