Settling into Life here

I nearly forgot my password and user name for the blog.. Thankfully my sis helped me. I tried so many thanks and finally GOT It! haha..

Back from 23days in China, I feel like half a KunMinger. I know the place better than my Sg pals there and sometimes even better than my leader who is there for 2yrs already.

Many people asked me about my trip. One word in summary- Challenging. Last yr the same thing at the same place, but its more fun. Seems like this yr, there were so many things tt I need to learn and that totally blew my mind. For example, you cannot trust the pple totally, you need to be wise in your dealings with them. I am learning.. Trying very hard to learn this. Mayb working in a youth ministry I have learnt to let go totally and treat each teen as real as I am. But when I go over there, I am told not to believe in pple easily no matter how friendly they seem to you. Its hard, but its reality..

I also learn that any connections I have with the pple wil impact the ministry there and affect the work that they are doing. I really need to be asking for wisdom as to what would be helping them and what would not be helping them. really pray that I will be more of a help than a hinderance.

How come I nv learn these in the first yr? How come I learn it so hard this yr? I am stil in the process of dealing with my feelings and thoughts regarding this. Asking God to give me His grace to accept this.

Coming back to Sg, I feel at home. Maybe I was not really focus while I was there. While I was there, my mind was always in Sg and the people here. Maybe this helped me in settling back here. Yet now that I am back here, my mind also think abt the people there. How confused can a person get? I feel spilt. Its hard to be seperated from the people who you know are dear to you. and I have people dear to me both here and in China. Its tough. May God help me..

Thankfully I got to meet up w the friends I got to know last yr. Knowing them for a yr seems different. We seem closer this yr though we nv really kp in touch, but the bond is there. I feel so close to them and a few of them also told me that this yr felt different from last yr cos the bond is much stronger. Its a miracle that we can stil kp in touch and meet one another aft 1 yr. Its very special and precious to me which I shall treasure in my heart.

Now I dun hv muz time to think about these. Shall have to put them on hold for a moment bcos work are waiting for me to settle and rally is coming. Praying for God to give me His inspiration to know how to bless the teens. there is much to catch up w the girls. Well, the price to pay for being away for 3 weeks. haha.. =)

People, I am back =)