船到桥头自然直

“Your Word is a light to my feet and a lamp to my path.” God's Word does not illuminate your whole future before you exactly and in all the details. But His Word will definitely guide the step before me and the path before me.

His Word, just like His grace is sufficient for today, is enough for the step and the path before me. Many times I worry ahead of time, and I fall out of His grace. I often need to be reminded that God’s grace is sufficient for me moment by moment I need it.

As I pray and ponder over my future step, many worries and concerns often cloud my thinking. With all these worries harassing me, I cannot think with clarity. I need the wisdom of God to get out of these confusions. And I need the promise of God to assure me that He will not lead me where His grace cannot keep me.

船到桥头自然直。Perhaps this is the Chinese understanding of God's grace. God may or may not remove all the obstacles ahead of us before we meet with it. He has no need to deliver us out of danger before we meet with it. As a Chinese, perhaps I just need to understand 船到桥头自然直. As a Christian, I need to believe that God's grace will be there when I need it. And I need to know that worrying only cause me to doubt God's grace for me. So stop worrying LiJie...

Trust, Love and Dance!

There are a lot of nice movies that makes lots of sense..

"When a love needs proof, there is no trust. And when there is no trust, there is no love." (From the movie, The Butterfly.)

I won't say that I have some great truth to apply from this, just thought that it makes a lot of sense...

Trust and Love. Have thought about it before... Its difficult to trust others to love you, difficult to trust that they really do love you. Because human always demands others to love us the way we want them to. And essentially, people always love self more than others. Isnt it true? Can I really trust anyone to love me? I don't know. God, you need to help me.

"In dance, man always takes the lead. And the woman follows. The man does not dominate with his strength, rather he invites you (the woman) to join him in his steps. There is as much strength needed in following, as in leading." (From the movie, Take The Lead)

Wonderful show about dancing.. Makes me wonder if I should learn ballroom dancing! heehee.. So biblical.. beginning to think that relationship, is like dancing Waltz. The man lead, the woman follows. There will be time when the woman dances better, then she needs to help the man to find his steps. The woman needs to trust the man in leading, otherwise there will be no following. Every dance is a journey that the man bring the woman on. The two shall become one in the dance.

I'm going show it to my girls and help them learn about biblical relating with guys.. =)

More Pictures =)

More pictures from Jasline from the night when we celebrating Doreal's bday =)

Finally realised that pictures means that we can retain memories.. Nv use to like to take pictures so much.. Once again to emphasize, I think these people influence me la! haha.. =) Seriously taking pictures with them are fun! Jus a time to be crazy and leave memories behind..

Thanks friends for all the memories each of you have made in my life..


Slurp, Slurp Slurp!!

I also dunno why Jia and me stare at each other like this! haha!!

Smile smiles.. =)

Doreal's Bday!!

In celebration of Doreal's birthday, we went to a Jap restaurant for dinner. Thank Doreal for her generous heart for treating us all.

In return, there is really nothing muz that I can give her, (I don't think she expects any as well)but I think this beautiful cake that I chose can lift up her spirit.. I really love this cake! I am so happy to have found this cake! And it taste great as well!

Strawberry Cheese Cake. See how loaded with strawberry this cake is! I don't know about the rest, oh but I love it!

I think Doreal looks nice in this picture.. Beautiful smile, beautiful cake. Doreal, may all your days be filled with beautiful smiles.. because the Lord our God is with us wherever we are..




After our dinner, we walked a long way to get to TCC. Well, I think none of us had coffee even though its a coffee place. Anyway, some of us were falling asleep there.. At about 12mid-nite, we decided to call it a day and go home..

It was a fun time just relaxing with the girls.. Not much opportunity to do that... Mayb next time, I can organize one, have steamboat at tjunction! haha =)

SALT retreat

Been a few days since I came back from SALT retreat, I thought I wanna share 1 encouraging thing.

We had a time of prayer for the SALTees as part of the graduation program. Each SALTee is to be sitted in the center of the circle and those who felt led will pray for him/her. I enjoyed the time of prayer so much! I sensed that the teens enjoyed the time of prayer too..

Each one was just praying for one another so freely, so openly, so lovingly I must say. There were thanksgiving for one another's contributions, gifts, and just how God had created them. There were prayer of blessings for one another in their school, family and life. Even Char who was not "supposed" to be in SALT was included in the prayer fellowship and was greatly encouraged.. there is unity in prayer. The laborers should also really learn from them! =)

For those that I didnt open my mouth to pray for you, I was quietly praying in my heart for each one. There just does not seem to have enough time for each one to pray. For Vincent, I prayed for you that you would come to trust in the Lord for the timing in your life. For Samuel, I prayed that you would find delight in the presence of the Lord. For Yunzhen, I prayed for you to know that you are beautiful to God. For Gordon, I prayed for you to seek first the kindgom of God and His righteousness. I wonder if I have left out anyone, but those whom I left out, I know God carries you dearly in His arms..


See how they play. I think this must have been 330am in the morning.. Aiyo, Joel so tired alrdy but they still dont care and play beside him! haha!



I think they say this is a family protrait or something..


And this is part of the class of SALT II, 2007 =)

Salvation issue

Feeling a little sick.. Thankfully is under control..

Met up with Pastor John yesterday.. Had an interesting time talking to him, listening to him. Then one thing he mentioned aboutmy family really got stucked into my head. He sensed that my parents are very open to the gospel!! How exciting! But.. I m not the right person to share with them... What Pastor sensed is that, my parents still treats me like a little girl and therefore what I share will not hold any weight to them. (Well, I often feel this way about my parents too. At least my dad will always looked at me like a little girl who dunno any better. Maybe I really dunno.. I also dunno) Anyway, since I am nt the right person to share, my role is really to pray! And I will be faithful in praying for them

I believe my prayers will bring salvation to my parents' life. I believe God will honor my prayers. Anyone of you, who have a heart for me and my parents, do pray along with me.. I really believe that God will bring the right person into there life to share. Yet Pastor reminded me to still seized any opportunity to share..

Backache

Having a backache now.. I wonder why.. So uncomfortable sitting down.. I think lying down could be better..

Its already August.. Its not until Suyin reminded me that I realised there's only 120 more days before the year is going to be over.. What have I accomplished this year? Work wise, I guess I am very much a follower, following my leaders to where they say.. Christ Church, St Hilda's, blah blah blah.. Well, have I done much at work, I believe so.. Yet the nature of the work is such that you may have done alot, but no visible fruits. Or you may have done little, but it just bear fruits.. Another mystery in life, the timing for fruits to be ripe...

I believe prayers brings about fruit-bearing.. I got to pray more.. and work less.. haha!

On Family...

Now I am using my new Singnet broadband to go online and write my blog.. the story behind this singnet broadband is pretty interesting, how God led me to sign up for it and how I discover something about my father..

A week ago, my Maxonline contract ended. the initial decision was to recontract and get a cheaper rate.. But as I was dealing w the sales rep, there was no peace.. The way she do her business feels a bit unethical to me.. I had 2nd thoughts about signing up w her, but then agreed to her verbally at the end because I feel that there is no loss on my part..

Next day, as i was shopping with Kingmun, we were jus causally chatting and was telling him about internet blah blah blah.. From him, I realised that Singnet is cheaper and thankfully there was a singnet shop nearby and so we went to take a look.. On the spot, i called the sales rep, cancelled my verbal agreement with her and sign on Singnet.. So here I am using a cheaper and faster broadband! =) Thanks to Kingmun and God..

2nd episode about Singnet... Was about to plug in and get the broadband started when I realised that the telephone port I had near to my PC was a "dead" one, so I wouldnt get my broadband started. Well, i was impatient and frustrated and disappointed. My parents and I tried to check out some solutions and finally when dad realised that only a needed cable was missing, he volunteered to go Mustafa to get it!

I was surprised at how he wanted the broadband to get going for me. At 11pm at night, he took a bus to Mustafa to get the cable. Usually he could cycle but he cant cycle yet because he jus ended a minor operation. I wonder when was the last time I inconvenient myself for them. Many times I only think about my own convenience and only take for granted their love for me. I was too blind to appreaciate them. My friends, pls remind me of my dad's love for me. i am forgetful when it comes to the goodness of people.. Pls remind me..

And discussing problems with family can actually be so much more easier on yourself because you do not have to carry the load all on your own.. They are there to share.. I know for my parents that they are eager to help me and want to be part of my life.. Now to respond to them, I pray that I will grow in maturity, in thinking for them, not only consider myself in all things..

I know that God is working out His redemption plan in my family.. Redeeming the lost relationships..

Jesus Redeemer

God is committed to changing me, for this I am thankful. This lies in the fact that He is my Redeemer. My Jesus Redeemer means He has bought me with a great price, bought me, rescue me, from the hand of the evil one.

I use to think that Jesus Redeemer is just the fact that He died for me, paid for my sins and I no longer have to be slave to Satan. Yet I have came to understand that there is more (Thanks Robert for the message).

Jesus Redeemer also means that He will redeem me from everything that is holding me back from living an abundant life in Him. He will redeem me from my past hurts. He will redeem me from my emotional baggages. He will redeem me from my flaaws. He will redeem me from my broken relationships. Everything that are in my life which needs His redemption, He will redeem. He is committed to redeeming me, to change me into more like Him.

Lucas coming into our family is redemptive. His coming has redeemed my relationship with my mum. As I see her caring for Lucas, I understood finally that she does love me and sis. I began to believe that she does love and will care if she has the capacity to. But she does not have tt capacity when we were young. I began to see that she was under the bondage of the evil one and she could not help herself. Now that she is in a much better state, she is able to care and to love. To understand that she was unable, rather than she was unwiling makes a huge difference. I am willing to accept her again.

Roy said this, "God does not waste suffering. Everything is redemptive." I think I kinda understand it more now. When we thought that life would be tough, it turned out to be a joy. What I thought was going to be suffering and trial, it turned out to be redemptive.

Because Jesus is my Redeemer, I have hope for tomorrow. I have hope that my future will be glorious. Jesus has redeemed me and He is still redeeming me to be who I am meant to be.

Mysteries continues

More mysteries that I have been thinking about...

Following Solomon's list of things that he finds amazing...My list continues...

1. Faithfulness shown in old couples who have been with each other for the most part of their lives. The way old couples hold hands and cross the road, stroll in parks, take bus together... they amazes me... Wonder what made them held on to another for the rest of their lives...

2. Unfaithfulness shown in men n women who decided to go separate ways after they have committed to another in marriage.

Why do people get married? If marriage is about staying with another sinner, if marriage is not easy, if marriage means you need to constantly adjust to suit another person, they why do so many people still want to get married?

Seriously all married couples with the exception of 1, told me this, “marriage is not easy”. And one day I got angry in my heart! I was not sure why I got angry. The feeling is like, if getting married is so difficult, then don't get married la. I just don' understand why still so many want to be married. (I get angry because I don't have the reasons? I don't know)

If marriage is a torture, why torture am glad for the one person who told me that he had a wonderful marriage with his wife. I am thankful for him who did not tell me that marriage is difficult... e he is the rare one.

Unless I find the reason and purpose for marriage, marriage is a tough choice. Not for the fainted-hearted to venture.