爱是什么？

爱是凡是包容，凡是相信，凡是盼望，凡是忍耐。爱是永不止息。

因为要一直包容，因为要在无法相信下继续相信，因为要在绝望中继续盼望，因为要在无法忍受下继续忍耐，所以爱也带来了许多痛苦。可是因为爱是永不止息，所以再痛，再绝望，再无法忍耐，还是要继续下去。因为爱是永不止息。。。

籍着祷告，又找到了爱的力量。。。

主默然爱我

主默然爱我。他爱我的心不是言语所能表达的，也不是人心所能体会的。

大多时候主都是静静在试探我。对我的这份爱，即使是用言语来表达，我想我也不会明白。很多时候，我不明白神对我的苦心所以埋怨他，逃离他。他只是默默地接受，默默爱我。他对我的爱，就是这般怜悯，这般慈爱。。。

只有明白了他的心，知道了他的好，我才能与神更亲近。上帝说，我不是他的仆人，而是他的朋友。仆人不知道主人的心，可是朋友的心却是透露给朋友知道的。

Silence, Solitude, Slow...

Coming here used to be a dread. It’s boring and not fun. But now, I do enjoy the time here especially when I am alone. It gives me time to be in solitude, just doing things alone. I guess it recharges me ready to go and face people again. When I finished all my work, I even have time to pray and read the Word. I am thankful for my time here.

Its time like this that I am forced to be quiet, reflect and slow down. Otherwise I would be rushing and rushing. Actually I feel bad that I am always ill prepared for my staff meeting. Robert would send the meeting agenda but then I always only take a look at them and off my pc. I just don’t have the desire to sit and look through the documents. Well, there are times when I looked through the things that I am supposed to, but then there are no thoughts or questions on my part la… anyway, not an excuse, I really do need to spend more time to be thinking through the things discussed at meeting, to be ready to contribute.

Talk about rushing… I think I walked too fast. ZQ say I walked too fast. How hard it is for me to walk slowly. I need time to wind down. Pastor Andrew say that his Sabbath has to be more than 3 months because the body takes about 3 months to slowly wind down and then the proper rest will only come in after the 3rd month. I realized that even in my strolling I need time to wind down to a strolling pace. When I first start strolling, I would be at a walking pace. After about an hour, I found that my pace begin to slow down and my body begin to relax.

Solitude, Silence, Slow is good… sometimes… haha…

Back from retreat

I am tired out from the retreat.. Think its more of a camp. I enjoy the messages, but the social part of me drains me out.. to be with nt so familiar people for 5 days.. I hardly have space to rest.

Anyway, I am tired.. Non-stop working after coming back fr retreat. I need to take a break, I need to sleep more.

Moving out of comfort zone

Going for retreat tomorrow. Not particularly looking forward to it… But since I have got to be there, I intend to make the most of my time there… Shall watch my diet, shall swim, shall get the most out from the speaker, shall pray a lot, shall read a lot!

What a luxury to be a full time staff! But I intend to give up this luxury…

I think more and more, God is telling me to move on, to experience some other challenges He has in store for me. Underneath all these challenges, I know is God’s intention to make me more mature, to be more like Him, to experience His strength and His grace. I don’t know why, but somehow being in full time for one and a half year now, I feel a little slack and very much in my comfort zone. I very much desire to get out of my comfort zone. I feel stagnant and I want to grow, and I know that there are such things as growing pains. Not only in our physical life such as puberty, but also in our spiritual life.

God has been challenging me. His message to me is consistent. I need to go through a bit more in my life. So I intend to do so. With all excitement and some fears. However the questions are, where will I go to? Will I be able to make it? I don’t know the answers to them all.

As for now, I will continue to challenge myself in my current work/ministry. There are some challenges that I am currently facing. I am glad that God has helped me to face them positively so that I grow from it. =)

神要造就一个可用之材，就把他放在风雨之中，让他经过风雨的生活.风要来就让它来吧，雨要下，我也没有办法。因为耶和华是我的庇护，是我的保障。

船到桥头自然直

“Your Word is a light to my feet and a lamp to my path.” God's Word does not illuminate your whole future before you exactly and in all the details. But His Word will definitely guide the step before me and the path before me.

His Word, just like His grace is sufficient for today, is enough for the step and the path before me. Many times I worry ahead of time, and I fall out of His grace. I often need to be reminded that God’s grace is sufficient for me moment by moment I need it.

As I pray and ponder over my future step, many worries and concerns often cloud my thinking. With all these worries harassing me, I cannot think with clarity. I need the wisdom of God to get out of these confusions. And I need the promise of God to assure me that He will not lead me where His grace cannot keep me.

船到桥头自然直。Perhaps this is the Chinese understanding of God's grace. God may or may not remove all the obstacles ahead of us before we meet with it. He has no need to deliver us out of danger before we meet with it. As a Chinese, perhaps I just need to understand 船到桥头自然直. As a Christian, I need to believe that God's grace will be there when I need it. And I need to know that worrying only cause me to doubt God's grace for me. So stop worrying LiJie...

Trust, Love and Dance!

There are a lot of nice movies that makes lots of sense..

"When a love needs proof, there is no trust. And when there is no trust, there is no love." (From the movie, The Butterfly.)

I won't say that I have some great truth to apply from this, just thought that it makes a lot of sense...

Trust and Love. Have thought about it before... Its difficult to trust others to love you, difficult to trust that they really do love you. Because human always demands others to love us the way we want them to. And essentially, people always love self more than others. Isnt it true? Can I really trust anyone to love me? I don't know. God, you need to help me.

"In dance, man always takes the lead. And the woman follows. The man does not dominate with his strength, rather he invites you (the woman) to join him in his steps. There is as much strength needed in following, as in leading." (From the movie, Take The Lead)

Wonderful show about dancing.. Makes me wonder if I should learn ballroom dancing! heehee.. So biblical.. beginning to think that relationship, is like dancing Waltz. The man lead, the woman follows. There will be time when the woman dances better, then she needs to help the man to find his steps. The woman needs to trust the man in leading, otherwise there will be no following. Every dance is a journey that the man bring the woman on. The two shall become one in the dance.

I'm going show it to my girls and help them learn about biblical relating with guys.. =)

More Pictures =)

More pictures from Jasline from the night when we celebrating Doreal's bday =)

Finally realised that pictures means that we can retain memories.. Nv use to like to take pictures so much.. Once again to emphasize, I think these people influence me la! haha.. =) Seriously taking pictures with them are fun! Jus a time to be crazy and leave memories behind..

Thanks friends for all the memories each of you have made in my life..


Slurp, Slurp Slurp!!

I also dunno why Jia and me stare at each other like this! haha!!

Smile smiles.. =)

Doreal's Bday!!

In celebration of Doreal's birthday, we went to a Jap restaurant for dinner. Thank Doreal for her generous heart for treating us all.

In return, there is really nothing muz that I can give her, (I don't think she expects any as well)but I think this beautiful cake that I chose can lift up her spirit.. I really love this cake! I am so happy to have found this cake! And it taste great as well!

Strawberry Cheese Cake. See how loaded with strawberry this cake is! I don't know about the rest, oh but I love it!

I think Doreal looks nice in this picture.. Beautiful smile, beautiful cake. Doreal, may all your days be filled with beautiful smiles.. because the Lord our God is with us wherever we are..




After our dinner, we walked a long way to get to TCC. Well, I think none of us had coffee even though its a coffee place. Anyway, some of us were falling asleep there.. At about 12mid-nite, we decided to call it a day and go home..

It was a fun time just relaxing with the girls.. Not much opportunity to do that... Mayb next time, I can organize one, have steamboat at tjunction! haha =)

SALT retreat

Been a few days since I came back from SALT retreat, I thought I wanna share 1 encouraging thing.

We had a time of prayer for the SALTees as part of the graduation program. Each SALTee is to be sitted in the center of the circle and those who felt led will pray for him/her. I enjoyed the time of prayer so much! I sensed that the teens enjoyed the time of prayer too..

Each one was just praying for one another so freely, so openly, so lovingly I must say. There were thanksgiving for one another's contributions, gifts, and just how God had created them. There were prayer of blessings for one another in their school, family and life. Even Char who was not "supposed" to be in SALT was included in the prayer fellowship and was greatly encouraged.. there is unity in prayer. The laborers should also really learn from them! =)

For those that I didnt open my mouth to pray for you, I was quietly praying in my heart for each one. There just does not seem to have enough time for each one to pray. For Vincent, I prayed for you that you would come to trust in the Lord for the timing in your life. For Samuel, I prayed that you would find delight in the presence of the Lord. For Yunzhen, I prayed for you to know that you are beautiful to God. For Gordon, I prayed for you to seek first the kindgom of God and His righteousness. I wonder if I have left out anyone, but those whom I left out, I know God carries you dearly in His arms..


See how they play. I think this must have been 330am in the morning.. Aiyo, Joel so tired alrdy but they still dont care and play beside him! haha!



I think they say this is a family protrait or something..


And this is part of the class of SALT II, 2007 =)