I told Marge, if I have a child, I will call him/her 恒希. (It means to have hope forever, to never give up on hoping.) I learnt that it’s so important to have hope. Of course faith and love as well. Oh! I can just call another 恒信 (to have faith forever and never give up believing.) And just as we cannot separate faith, love and hope, so my children cannot be separated! They will need to support one another in love… Haha… I love it!!!
快乐是自己的，不是你给的，寂寞要自己负责。
Even though there is loneliness, there is no regret. I just got to go through this. Even though it feels lonely, I need to believe that my Father is with me. Here is a part of my life which I know only God can walk me through it. No one else can. Maybe its also a part of my life that I am facing up to reality that there is no one who can fill me fully… I have perhaps been idealistic. And I was too idealistic to realise it.
Who am I? Am I who you think I am? Am I who I think I am? Am I what I do? Am I what I believe? Am I who you never see me to be? Am I who I never myself to be? Who am I? I thought I knew. But not so. The answer is obvious and yet not so obvious to me. I am who I am in Christ. But what does it mean? Then what is the difference between me and the other Christians? Who am I?
Only God knows. I have become to see Him as more and more important in my life. Without God, I would be floating in my life without direction. He is my anchor. Though I am still holding Him in my boat, and have not let down the anchor as yet. So God is still floating with me in my boat. My boat have not yet settle down..
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