In God's time

Missed the long chats with Kris. Been a few months since we chatted..

She helped me to normalize a lot of things. My double-mindedness at this point is normal, its the heart and the head tearing me apart. My mind was made up to move on to another centre, but my heart is sad to move on as there are things which I love here. At times, when i encounter anything good at QT, my heart feels sad to leave and wonder if I shd really leave? However I am glad to be struggling thru these, because its a necessary process if I want to let go. I am gg thru a grieving process.

She reminded me to pray. Pray that I may learn to let go of things that are not healthy and to hold on to things that is part of me and is helpful to the new workplace. Sometimes this means that I need to clarify what is those that is ME and is of God that I should hold on to. And what is it that is of the work culture that is not me, and I should leave it at the old place.

Along the way, there must been hurts and bruises. But the forgiveness process needs to come in and to allow myself to come to a closure so that I do not bring on old wounds to a new place. New wine need new wineskin to contain. A new place need a healthy heart to embrace and appreciate.

There is a need to be patient. Patient with myself and to trust God to form me into His image. Sometimes I think I help God a little too much..

In your time...

Learning to relax...

Oh another thing to learn to relax is the fact that I am preparing for my wedding and marriage. Many things to prepare for and there is alot of anxiety that I cant get the things I want.

I want to witness and testify to God's perfect timing.. =)