Prayer of Jabez

一生奉献，一生不回头。。
Of the whole song, I only remember this line.

Many times as I serve God, I looked back. I wondered how things would have been different if I chose otherwise. Yet in looking back and counting my loss, I always give thanks that He has blessed me this much.

Admit it, I have lost out when I serve God full time for 2 years. Lost out in experience as a social worker, lost out in mometary gains and other things. I have got to face it and stop denying that I didnt lose out!

BUT...

The gains that I have receive I need to proclaim it in my life!! The time to watch over Lucas and my family, the time spent with the girls, the lessons learnt about God in my period of serving full time. These are eternal and priceless..

Where is my place in the will and plan of God? Am I where He wants me to be? I know that I dont want to just spend 9-6pm in the office and finish my job. I can do more and be much more. (I am beginning to wonder if I am an ambitious person?) But if I give more in the office, other areas of my life will suffer. Either family, ministry or my personal life..

"O Lord that you would bless me and enlarge my territory. Let your hands be with me, and keep me from harm so that I will be free from pain. And God granted the prayer of Jabez."

May the Lord God also grant my prayer- the prayer of Jabez..