Have you been to LiJiang 丽江? Well, I had the privilege to be there with Doreal..This is Yulong Snow Mountain. The most revered mountain in LiJiang, one filled with many legends of spirits and gods. This mountain is so high and big that from town you can see it quite clearly. And I love 丽江古镇..See the people's way of life.. They are not in the village, probably their lifestyle is not as simple as those in the village, and they are richer definitely because of tourism. But they are still living simply. Its a very poor place. Life's harsh condition on them is revealed on their faces. People look older than they really are. Where we have been is not representative of Li Jiang. The place is much poorer and much simpler than we see. But the people have to put on a show for the tourists. Too bad..Though the place is poor, they are very blessed. They have rich resources provided by God, and most importantly, the Naxi people (majority ethnic of LiJiang, though they are considered ethnic miniority considering whole of China) are contended people. The building gives it a feel that none else in this world has. Another place in the world that probably has such a feel is 苏州. I want to go 苏州. I often hear of 江南 in those chinese drama. When the emperor wants to get out of the palace and to see how the commoners are living, he will go to JiangNan. I discovered that part of JiangNan is actually 苏州. I think 江南 must be beautiful.. As I looked back at the postcards I bought from 丽江, I began to miss the place. I miss China and I want to explore the whole of China. I dont mind giving the world a miss so that I may complete exploring the whole of China. I am never a generalist in that sense.. Lord God, would I have my chance to be there? To be there for the sake of your people.. Use me greatly at where I am. Take me deeper in my walk with you. Lead me further where I have not been. Clarify Your purpose in my life..
Thank God for this week.. =) Though they were some unhappy things tt happened, but there are still thanksgiving for me to share..
Went to 永和油条大王with my parents and Lucas.. I love the 烧饼with肉松and鸡蛋. Oh i love it!! By the way, people if you dont know, they have shifted to Lorong 27A Geylang Road. 2 weeks ago we went to the old address and cant find it. It was disappointing.. But dont know how my Dad found out the new place and we went the next day of discovery! =) Nice nice..
2nd thing to be thankful about is the recent shoppings I had. Went shopping with Jia at Bugis last nite.. Both of us agree we had good buys and we were very satisfied with out buys.. =) Dont like to buy tshirt because I think its a waste of my money but last nite I bought two. haha! But I guess when you buy shirts with friends, its different la.. We stayed for such a long long time till the salesgirl came to us and said,"你们还没有选好啊？" But we still continue choosing and choosing.. haha.. But we bought 4 shirts together so I guess the salesgirl should not be too offended la.. =)
I am so humbled and at the same time so ashamed.. So ashamed and bad about how I have been treating Lucas with impatience. Its time like this that I know my "love bank" is low and I need topping up. Maybe because I spent most of my Sunday at home, and more time with him means seeing more of his naughty acts. Some of them really frustrates me especially when he gets in your way of doing things..I prayed for forgiveness and hope that Lucas would forgive me in future.
Anyway, I needed to pray. Its time like this when I realised how weak and imperfect I am. And I felt ashame at the way I treated Lucas, and the impatience that was really getting to me.
Its also time of weakness like this, that the Lord is glorified. Isa 43:4 came to mind and He reminded me that I am precious and loved. And because He love me, He will give men in exchange for my life and people in exchange for me.
I am humbled to be reminded that the ministry that I have among the girls today is not because I am good in any way. The ministry that I have is a result of His love for me and His honor toward me. He reminded me that even though I am weak, He has chosen me to do His work- to touch the lives of the girls. I am only a broken vessel used by God, for His glory. No matter how much I do or how much I have, I am but a broken vessel. N my purpose is to bring glory to my Master. I am so humbled by Lucas and my God. So humbled by God's choice of man- that He use the weak and poor in the world.
Finally got the pictures from Miss Teh-C!!! haha... That day we went to...COFFEE CLUB @ The Central. Its their first time to The Central.. With such a cool place, such a cool cafe, and the funny bungee jumpy ride before us, we had a GREAT TIME!
Some food we ordered! Big mistake to order 1 dish per person, cos the portion is rather big.. Even Teh the bigger eater among us find it v filling! hope she missed tis comment! haha! Then though we were full, we had the stomach for more sweet stuff! haha.. I have another stomach meant only for dessert.. hehe...
Made them take some pictures with the "card" I made them.. Hope they find it encouraging even in the years to come.. Then more pictures and more pictures.. Its never easy to take a nice picture especially when you dun want to ask the people around for help and yet you want everyone to be in the picture! We had to bend so low just to be in the camera...Cant be seen in the picture the suffering we went through though.. Some random pictures.. at the coffee club stil.. at Barang Barang... And finally! The fav place for any group photo taking.. Toilet with a nice long mirror and nice lighting! About 2weeks into the new year.. Not in the same BS grp.. But nothing much has change ya girls...=) Each of your growth is my greatest encouragement in the Lord.. So keep growing! =)
God says: Honor your father and mother. But... How do you honor your parents when there are honorable things that they do? How do you know you have truly forgiven them, when there are repeatedly doing the things tt wrong you. Perhaps I dun really know forgiveness... All your life, you have been battling with the same issue. Your reliance, your addiction causes us all to revolve our lives around you. How could you be so selfish? You have a life to live, yet you are not living it. You have a family, but its nt enough for you. You are still addicted. Its used to be hardcore substance, now its to soft substance tt does not appear so addictive. What is causing you so much pain and emptiness that you have to rely on them to numb you? You have a life, live it! What have you taught me in life? One thing I know, you taught me not to waste my life like you are doing now. You taught me pain.. Perhaps its you who caused me to think so much about life and I'm determined not to waste my life like you did... I want to love you, pls help me to love you... Stop it..
God, you know how to help me, help her... I dunno..
