Love, Faith, Works

It has been a while since I last post..

Jus to respond to Jul. Well I guess girls do tend to reflect more than guys.. at least in my circle of friends, its my female friends who reflect deeply together with me, feel deeply and engage deeply with me =) Females are deep.. So v v deep.. If you ever attempt to venture into understanding females, be sure you have lots of courage.. =) not for the faint hearted.. =)

After reading Rach's blog, set me thinking.. If I was like her in my teenage-hood, wld I be better off? Yet I have no regrets as to how I have offered my hearts to many people.. (not only in the BGR sense but also friendships.) To love is to be vulnerable.. To love is to feel put yourself at risk of love, and this risk is almost guaranteed.. To love is to sacrifice.. Love is scary, yet love is beautiful when the flower of love blooms..

"To love at all is to be vulnerable. Love anything, and your heart will certainly be wrung and possibly broken. If you want to make sure of keeping it intact, you must give your heart to no one, not even to an animal. Wrap it careful round with hobbies and little luxuries, avoid all entanglements; lock it up safe in the casket or coffin of your selfishness. But in that casket- safe, dark, motionless, airless- it will change. It will not be broken; it will become unbreakable, impenetrable, irremdeemable.. The only place outside Heaven where you can be perfectly safe from all dangers... of love is Hell" C.S Lewis

He is one man I truly admire.. He knows what love is.. Not just because he wrote about love.. But he demonstrates love in his life. He married his wife when she was having cancer. He married her to serve her, not to use her to serve him.. And this lady had 2 sons when they were married, she was a widow. He married a woman with cancer and 2 sons. He willingly took on the responsibility of caring for her and 2 sons. And the 2 sons loved him.. Eventually his wife did recover, but only for a short while before cancer return and took her life away. What a dear man..

To me, love was such a simple matter. Jus simply bare your heart.. Yet, I am taking on a different perspective now. Love is tough and painful. I thought that Love requires lots of faith. Faith that when we step forth in love, our hearts to be more loving. Faith that God will take our pain and hurts and heal them. I have forgotten (just been reminded) that Love requires works too. Faith and Works needs to go together. I need to Work through Love and nuture Love such that it will grow.. James says that Faith without Works is dead. While Works without Faith is useless.. In Love, I am learning that it takes Faith and Works to make Love blossom.. Ultimately, all these need to be submitted under the Sovereignty of God.. Because only God can makes things grow. We can only water and nuture.. and by faith believe that Love will grow..

Was talking to Santi last night about Discipleship. Would say its a frutiful time.. Summary of our discussion.. Crucify ourselves! It was a time where we talk about the most blatant reality of our Christian life.. the Cross is not about glory but about pain and suffering and shame.. Were we willing to pay the price for Christ, for love, for the cross..

God, your way is indeed the narrow way, but which leads us to heaven.. Broad indeed is the way the leads to destruction.. Keep me to your way Lord.. My dear God, my lovely Jesus..