Love

Gg to China tml morning.. need to check in at 610am.. Thank God for many good friends who will come and send me off. I told my sis that I know I am loved.. I am glad to be one of those who can make this claim in my life- that I am loved.. Not saying this out of pride or wat, but a genuine appreciation of the people who love me and the love God has shown me. There were times when I feel unloved, unappreciated.. but those were the times when I was young and insecure.. as I grow, I grew to be more secure and know that I know that I am loved.

I am reminded of God's love. That I love because He first loved.. In my life, I try to imitate Him. I love others first and I am very happy to say that I see my love yielding harvest.. I know that there are many times when I am tired of loving and I often ask myself "for what?". "For what am I doing this? Y do I give off myself to the point of hurting myself?" Weiqi told me before that I need to learn to keep my hands to myself and not to stretch it out all the time for others. Sometimes i feel so stupid when I stretch out my hands to help and the person jus hit my hand in return. I so feel stupid.. But yet, I cant bear to keep my hands. I do want to give help and I do want to love.

Not that I love everyone, but I love those whom God has given me a special burden to love. For example in camp, God has given me Joash to help and love and so I love them. Not that I dont love all the rest of the teens. I do yet I have limited energy and capacity to show it. The most I can manage at the camp was a very warm smile and a greeting to check how they are at the camp. This is wat I mean by loving those whom God has given me to love.

Want to say that there are many whom I love and I know love me. Thank especially for my old old friends who love me, Yee Jia, Serene, Doreal, Jac. And not so old friends who love me, Geok, TingLing, Weiqi, ZhengQiang, Junhao, Elijah, Liao Ling. Uni friends who love me, Cheewei, Soon Kiet, Callin, Kris, HuiLing, Chailing, Rob. My mentors who love me, Robert, Kia Yuan, Marge, LeeYin, SiewLim, Chung. My girls who love me, Huimei, Rach, Ruth, Char, Santi, Suyin, Eunice, Nat, Samantha. The boys who love me, Sam, Jo, Josh. Even the new friends I made at camp, Vin n Weichin, they wanna help me carry luggage when I return.. I have a family who love me.. The greatest thanksgiving I can give to God today is the gift of Love. Am I too mushy? I hope not. These come fr my heart.. That day when I went to send the SHSS boys off, I was telling RX that these boys are fortunate. He thot I was referring to their opp to travel all ard. But I told him no. They are fortunate bcos they have ppl who care enuff to go and send them off. So i pray that they will love that they are loved. I pray that everyone will know that they are loved.

About China, I pray for safety and a fruitful trip. I pray that God will take care of my loved ones in Sg esp my family and my girls and boys. I pray that God will keep them and will give me peace to know that they are in His safe hands.