Exhausation

I can feel my brain burning.. Fatigue fr camp plus the prep for the trip is crazy. Thank God that I managed to get some time off from all these things at dinner with Eddie. Jus received a mail fr Chung. Pushing me to a higher level and expanding my capacity. Chung like to do this. To push my limit and to expand my capacity. Sometimes I feel like complaining yet this is nt the spirit. God give me joy.

I feel like a zombie, w a body but disconnected with my heart and soul. Except when I am talking to people and reflecting on this blog here. Expressing myseld helps me to connect to reality. Every time after a trip/ camp, I cant seem to come back to reality. I am stil stuck at camp, my heart and mind. I am still functioning on a mental and physical level, but emotionally I am really nt there. Today as I meet Rach n Char, I am stil fine, but when I go to Samantha's hse, I really hv to drag myself back before I disconnect.

I saw Evelyn when i was at bugis getting some stuff. I was talking to her and then i realise that I am feeling tense and stress.. from all the info that I need to handle eg. travel insurance, prep testimony, new shopping list for chung, getting things fr ppl to pass it to her. I must say I am only gg thru it w a smile cos of God's grace. Otherwise I might hv burst when I met her church friend n her sis to collect the stuff. God protect me fr burn out pls.

Anyway its a good time of meeeting w Rach, Char, Samantha & Reb. We talk abt camp and nothing muz.. Jus camp.. haha.. I am happy for the so positive experience, the things they learnt and the relationships made. I told rach & char that I wld nt be there camp advisor nxt time.. this is for their good so that they can learnt to be leader. I feel as if I am the leader in this camp.. Rach said that I filled in her gap for the things that she cannot do.. but haha.. nxt time, she jus got to do it! But ok i must say she has shown teachability in this camp as well. To push her own limits! welldone! Char too.. breaking out of her bubble.. welldone!

aft all this reflection still feeling tensed up.. ok my last weapon. the weapon of prayer..

Once again I know that tml will be good becos God is good and He will cont to be good forever. God help me to know deeply that you are good forever n ever