Physical ailments...

Have been ill ever since December camp.. never been feeling real well and on top. Constanly feeling feverish and recently headaches and eye-aches have been bothering me. I try to drinks lots of water, and cut down on new year goodies. Maybe I should nt take any of them. Appetitie have nt been tt good with tibits.. My nt so good throat is a deterrence for me to take tibits. Its a good sign la..

Wondering why the ill health? Sign of aging? Unhealthy lifestyle? Not enough rest? Well, well... I dunno.. I hope that Chinese New Year break would be a good time to nurse myself back to health.

A little worried about my eyes though. My appointment with National Eye Centre is in another 2 weeks time. But recently, I have been having eye-ache. The last time I have eye-ache, I ended up having another cornea abrasion. This time, I pray that God will protect my eyes till I get to see the doctor. Have been praying for complete recovery...

LACK NOT- NavTeens Camp 2008

Last year, it was to be slave for what they have enjoyed.. This year, it is to be tied up while they are eating.. I missed this part of the camp as I was at work. No wonder pictures are so important.





Remember your Creator in the days of your youth... Youth is your greatest gift from God. Play Hard, Study Hard, Love God Hard, Know Him Deep..






Each teen has the potential to know God. And to make Him known! Love them, train them, be with them...





Special Night.. Wild Wild West! Cowboy & red indian style costumes, burgers, onions rings, chicken wings & square dance... We love it! What's NavTeens Camp without Special Night =)






I dont know how to explain.. I think there are something magical about being with them. =)






LACK NOT TNT Annual Camp 2008




God, bless them for the time they have spent in the camp. Bless them richly as they chose to spend this time to know you. Bless them with a deeper desire for You. Transform them to the image of Christ.

Welcoming 2009

I guess I rushed into 2009.. Not much time to wave bye bye to 2008.. But anyway, time does not wait for anyone and here I am in 2009..

2008 can be captured in the following..

The way that He loves...

t (Christ)- I grew in His likeness a little more again.. In love and in humility..
E- Eyes protected by God... I could have lost my sight.
S- Salvation of girl... Li Hui received Christ on 23rd Feb 2008
S- Sufficent in my insufficiencies... God's grace abound in my life.

another S- Second generation... Huimei started helping another girl for BS. Charlene and her are now in Laborers Training Program, training to be laborers in the NavTeens. Fruits of labor plus alot of God's grace...

2009... Faith Goals...

El-Shaddai God All Sufficient. I don't know how I can cope with all the demands that is place before me. May El-Shaddai reveal Himself and make Himself real to me. I want to experience El-Shaddai..

Family Salvation.

Build the girls further in Christ-likeness.

Improve and stablize Kidstart.

Commit my 2009 into your hands...

Christmas Day

What do one do on a Christmas Day? I spent my whole morning trying to update my next year's schedule and getting my appointment diary in shape. Got this yesterday. I spent almost 2 hours searching for this. Its the best among all that I have seen.
Why spend 2 hours on searching? My rationale is that since I am going to use it for 1 whole year, I better make sure I love it!
I guess I am rather particular when it comes to certain choices that I make. There are many many things I am very qing chai about- anything also can. So I make very fasy decisions cos they dont really matters alot. But if it is going to affects me for a long time, I will invest time in researching and choosing. I made a new discovery of myself just from choosing a diary =) I guess this is why I decided to back out from the marriage.. I still needed time...
Ok, so what else do one day on a Christmas Day. Its to upload some overdue pictures!!

Yeah, Serene passed me her wedding pics.. (Hers the only wedding I got the full set of wedding pics. Thanks for sharing=) )So I am going to share some of my favorites here. =)
Will not show so much of her here cos I have not gotten her permission..


The preparations...





The posed...







The Church...




The Night...





Ok, what do one do for the rest of Christmas? I am going for a jog.. =)

N just received an sms.. On Christmas Day, someone had accept the Lord into her life.. The joy is immense.. Praise God.. He made all things possible.. Love you my Lord..

Reflection on a game

Angel and mortal game taught me 2 things.

Firstly, it’s more blessed to give than to receive. When you give, your reward is not in the person giving you thanks directly. The joy comes from seeing the smile on your mortal’s face. When no one applauds you, you know your reward is in heaven.

Secondly, it taught me to receive with gladness and grace. It’s a demonstration of grace when I have done nothing to deserve the gift. The other time it happened in our lives is when Christ gave His life for us.

Usual Life, but not back to Normal

As i went to walk this morning, I had a sense that my day is going to be different. Perhaps its the afterglow of the camp. It was wonderful in terms of how I encounter God. I did not learn much through the messages as I really didnt attend manu of them, but the encounter with God was brilliant.

N in the afternoon at work, as I was busy with things, I decided that I should just sit with 2 girls and spend time with them. This girl was wearing a shirt that says "Agape". Naturally I went on to talk about unconditional love. Then after awhile, I had my bible with me. And I showed them the passage on love and they read. They went on to read Genesis. I remembered I just got a children's devotional bible tat morning, so I took it to them and we all read together. It was amazing. I didnt have to push for it to happen and I am glad that God orchestrated it all to happen, how i had my bible, my children's devotional bible etc etc =)

Life is back to the routine of work, but it is definitely not back to normal already. I am so glad God gave me this priviledge of reading bible with 2 malay girls. I believe the Word will take root in their hearts and bear fruits. Pray for them if you read this.

May God bless you...

Local Missionary!

I am a missionary, but different from the others, I work in Singapore! haha!!

i work in a cross-cultural context in a local setting, I feel as if I am becoming less and less like a Chinese already! But thankfully, my love for the Chinese culture is strong enough to keep me rooted and not confused.

Everyday, I face non-Chinese at work almost 90% of the time. My awareness stop at the factual level initially. However, more and more, I find that emotionally and spiritually, I am beginning to respond to this fact. I need to be reflecting to myself what it may mean to me. Its just different working in a cross-cultutal context...

2 Peter 1:3-5

Went to Sentosa today with the youths. J's brother, N, was also there. As I was feeling tired, and he was feeling shy to join the group, so we happen to sit together and had a nice chat. It was a nice chat we have but I forgot to tell him.

He is 19 years old and going to the army. Just 3months ago, he told me he was going to be married with his girlfriend in 2009. But found out today that they just broke up. His girlfriend cant accept him for who he is, he said.

Given his golden dyed hair, tattoo-ed body, and some other behaviors different from mine, it seems a little strange that he is talking to me about acceptance. He even said that he does not want his girlfriend to be a gang member, does not want her to smoke and drink, and go to pub. Perhaps everyone really desire to be normal and accepted.

He's a rather nice chap, tends to like to boast about his past misdeeds that all. But given the background and the people whom he mixes with, what else can he boast about other than his misdeeds? How else can he command the respect of others if not for the fact that he belongs to the presumably largest and therefore most powerful secret society in Singapore.

As I reflect about this, my heart aches for the young people. For survival, they have to cling on to anything they can find. If it means to be in a gang, then so be it.

Lord, your divine power has given us everything we need for life and godliness through our knowledge of you who called us by your own glory and goodness. (So give these youths and children a sense of your personal calling and a glimpse of your glory and goodness. There really can be more to life than this). Through them, you have given us your very great and precious promises, so that through them, we may participate in the divine nature and escape the corruption in the world caused by evil desire. (Each of them need your help to escape the corruption in the world. Deliver them Lord...) 2 Peter 1:3-5

A box of ice-cream

Met this 16 years old at my corridor while I was on my way home. He was pushing a cool box and as I walked by him, he asked me if I wanted to buy a box of ice-cream from him. He said he is saving up for his polytechnic education. He claimed that a box of ice-cream was $12 and he is selling at $14.90 because he wants to earn a little.

Well, a side of me wanted to belive him, but the other side of me was a little skeptical. I needa little time to think so I showed him where I stayed and said perhaps he should go and ask my mother if she wanted the ice-cream. But as I stepped into the house, he didnt even have to say anything, I begin to dig out money from my wallet. I guess I decided that I want to risk believing in him.

I donno if I might have been cheated. Maybe he might be laughing at me and say what a fool I am.. But it does not matter. Wisdom and foolishness really depends on which side you stand on. Widsom to the world is foolishness to Christ, and the reverse is true.

For the sake of Christ, I am willing to be a fool.

Counseling..

While waiting for my appointment with Santi, I realised that I donno what to do. I could have prepared for camp, prepare for work, read etc etc.. But I dont have the materials I need at home. I wanted to go tJ but there is not enough time. So anyways, here I am typing my blog.

My sup asked me what counseling model I think I wanna go into more details and learn it. Different models suit different people. I wonder if I can go into christian counselling. Other than this kinda of counseling, I am not sure if I can make sense of wat the other counseling models are talking about. Or rather, I am nt sure if I can be convinced of wat the rest of the models tries to convince people.

I want to base my work upon the word of God. I need to check with her if it is possible to go into christian counseling in our centre. Anyway, if not, I really needa know what i can learn and apply already.

Learning and applying a particular model can really change a person's outlook and perspective. Its like a lens that you view the world from. If what I learn is not going to be sound biblically, I worry that what I say to people would nt be truth. But of course, saying this, even if some claimed to be christian counseling, i still need to evaluate it based on the word of God.

Love you so much, Jesus, Love you so much... How my soul longs for you, longs to worship you forever.. For you are my strength and shield...